It never occurred to me to put fluff out for birds. But Iām wearing some not-very-new-but-never-worn-before slippers which are leaving piles of fluff all over. Maybe I should gather it and put it out for the birds.
Sent some imās to my marketing person for our monday 8am zoom we have. No response, which is really oddā¦oh yeah, todays a holiday lol.
My kids are off school, but Iām working. No holiday for me. I got P-day off when I worked at MMC, but no other company has given it.
I created a graph that compares my salary as of the beginning of each year since Iāve been employed as an actuary, with a line from that year representing cumulative inflation (CPI-U) from that year, to see how Iāve compared.
Itās about what I expected, but data is interesting when visualized.
Everything is represented in terms of my current salary.
Iām looking to track when I get back to where I was before inflation took off. It will probably take a few years to catch up to that blue line.
I should probably do the expense report for my CAS dues before I get a nastygram about it.
Learned today that Sony must make a Spider-Man movie every 5 years and 9 months or they lose the rights to the IP.
I understand now why there have been so many Spider-Man reboots that I canāt keep track of them all. Andrew Garfieldā¦ the mousy Spider-Man whoās a good dancer IRLā¦ animated Miles Morales & Gwenā¦ the other life-action onesā¦
Usually go into the office on Tuesdays, but Iām very light on both work and meetings today, which never happens, so I decided to stay home and do the bare minimum.
Which of course is more stressful than being overworked and overbooked, somehow.
Late night thoughts as I wait for Wordle and Connections: am I making any kind of difference in this world? When I die, will anyone think the world is a little worse off as a result? Or will I not be missed?
I donāt live my life for any kind of recognition, and Iāll continue to do what I think matters and try to make a small impact while living a small life, and Iāll find contentment in that. But, does it even matter? Itās just a drop in the ocean, and I feel overwhelmed by all the things I cannot change. For every drop, there is so much evil that overshadows it. But all I have to give are drops.
I donāt want any responses to any of those questions. Itās not about what other people think of me, itās about how I think about myself, thatās the whole journey.
Perhaps, we need a Deep Thoughts thread.
Iāve been staying up late enough for wordle too.
Everyone is talking about how smooth and tasty and maybe a little sweet and non-bitter I am over in the quitting drinking thread. Everyone loves me, I get it already!
I think this is a question we all struggle with at some point. Iām comfortable that Iāve answered it for me to a reasonable level.
Iām not going to be famous. Iām not going to set the world on fire with business. I am more than happy making personal connections and being a good person to my family and those in my community. Proof of that will be when I die, I expect a good turnout at my funeral.
I make a deliberate effort to achieve those goals, I donāt just drift.
Iāve sort of given up on making a real difference. That would require getting other people to behave. I settle for making a difference where I can and not beating myself up over the rest. Like the guy throwing starfish back into the ocean.
That was my thought.
Very random but thatās why weāre here.
Was making a friend (A) recently, who introduced me to yet another friend (B). I got a tiny bit of ābad vibeā from B but shook it off, figuring itās good to meet new people. Not long after I met A, they broke up with a romantic partner (C).
Several months later, B just yesterday told A that B had slept with C two weeks after the breakup with A, specifically done to hurt A because B does that as a self-destructive tendency.
I fully believe Aās story and have zero interest in following up. We think B is a narcissist because they were trying to get A to yell at them and fight, and they wouldnāt engage.
Not long ago I texted B about hanging out. Weāll see if they respond. If they do I think my response will be,
"I think we can stop communicating any further. It would be embarrassing to remain associated with you. I would say sorry, but you are the one who made your choices. I hope you make better choices in the future.
Why did you text B about hanging out if you donāt want to?
Or was that before you found out about B sleeping with C?
I texted A and B to say āhey we should do this together soonā, and A called me right after. B just told A about sleeping with C yesterday, though it happened 2-3 months ago.
so, you should sleep with C, just to mess with B