That’s great. And the comment about the cats is a feeling that people for whom anti-depressants work often find.
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Thanks for keeping track and letting us (hopefully others close to you) know what is / you are feeling better.
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Didn’t sleep much at all Thursday night, woke up before 4 AM. I have been generally sleeping better, often at least 6 hours, just not last night.
Stomach wasn’t feeling well, the family left dirty dishes in the living room which is a pet peeve of mine (double ADHD, to be fair), I’m stressed about some stuff I need to get done right after work, trash and recycling are full, a lot of things to be negative about.
Also, as I take out the trash I realize it’s finally not bitterly cold at this time of morning. I might start doing morning runs in a few weeks. Outdoor work will be a pain but this year I’m kind of excited to do a better job tending the garden. I’m excited for some activities this weekend. Work shouldn’t be hard today and I’m feeling set up for next week. Waking up early means I can get the chores done, set up a slow cooker meal to be ready tonight, maybe tackle some small project I’ve been putting off.
I described the feeling not like suddenly being happy or feeling something new. It’s like being at the optometrist, A or B, 3 or 4? and you’re not always sure but maybe this one is a little clearer? And over time it does seem sharper. I searched for the words to describe the feeling I’ve had a few times, where I feel that filter flipping, and evanescence is actually the best fit - “the fleeting, almost ghostly feeling of a moment returning.” Like I’m remembering how I once was.
I’m not Depressed or Not Depressed, and it’s not exactly a slider from one to the other where I’m 60% better today, but I’m somewhere better than before. I didn’t forget how to be happy… But it’s like happiness was dampened, with an overall ceiling, and it took a lot more energy just to keep closer to that ceiling.
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